opening the doors.

change sucks, but as everyone has always said, it is good and helps you progress. in my mind i agree, in my heart i think some cotton headed ninny muggin made that up. every time change comes knocking on my door i usually lock it tight and hide. not this time. i'm opening the door wide and not necessarily inviting it in, but not locking it out either, which makes me nervous but excited.

Derek moved out a week ago. and i cried then. not because i was going to miss him, but because i know that this one change, is just the beginning of so much more. i don't like that. we're growing up guys. when i asked a customer how he was doing today he said, "the best ever, and do you know why that is? because i live one day at a time. i don't live in the past nor the future, i enjoy the now."

it hit me like a ton of rocks. i need to stop worrying about the future, and stop looking at the past. obviously i need to prepare for the future, but prepare and worry are two totally different things. i hope i can find the balance.

i'll keep you all posted.

Come again?

Vampire Diaries followers.
what the heck was up with the ending to season 3!?! it was so amazing!! but it makes me want to kill myself!
we have 3 and a half months till we find out what happens with the whole Damon, Stephan, and Elena problem! who are you routing for?? i think that she will go for Damon since the compulsion of their first meeting will wear off as well as the other times that he compelled her to forget. but. i think that she will all-in-all go for Stephan. i don't know how it will all pan out. and i'm nervous for it.
fact. the flashbacks killed me.
another fact. i teared up when Damon was so desperately trying to save Rick cause he knew Elena was dying.
she's a vampire now?! i'm dying! i didn't see that one coming for at least another season!
also, Klaus and Caroline? i'm a big fan. big big fan. team Klaus.
Rick, i'm going to miss him. but he freaked me out at the end.
bah. yikes. cheers to the next three months. may they pass quickly.