Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Calgary Canada!

Called to serve in the Calgary Canada mission, leaving April 24th 2013. Preparing to preach the gospel in the Spanish language.



I have never felt so blessed. The Lord has been so kind to me. All of his tender mercies I find shed upon me. 1) I'm serving somewhere cool, no more physical trials like China gave me. very different ones, and I look forward to them. 2) Im leaving in April, good glory the Lord knows how much I wanted to leave before May or June. 3) I am speaking Spanish. Heaven only knows how much I long to speak this language. I told my mom when I was in China, "mom, I do not care where I serve, but I want you to know that my heart lies with the Spanish Language." The Lord hears our prayers, and He wants us to be happy. I know that for a fact, and every day I get, I realize the truthfulness in those words. 

I can not express how much I look forward to Serving the people, members and not, in Calgary. I'm going where I am needed most. Family and friends will live to see another day while I am out embarking on this journey. The hard times are just beginning as I prepare to say goodbye to my best friend who leaves in only a few short weeks. I'll miss him terribly, but I also, will live to see another day. I truly believe the words I said to my cousin, "this is such a joyous work we are doing, such a joyous work." so even though my heart shall throb, and surly break a time or two, I have a testimony of this work that we as sisters and brothers are doing. So to all of you who are serving our brothers and sisters, but most importantly, our Lord, here's to you. And may the Lord be ever in your sights.



Thursday, January 3, 2013

missing china

Today I got the most unexpected, yet most pleasant surprise since coming home from china. My two roomies came and visited me at work! I haven't seen them nor anyone else from china since coming home. As I hugged them I felt my china memories rushing back to me and suddenly it was real all over again. Lately China has seemed so far and distant and quite honestly, I have felt like it didn't even happen. Today changed all of that. I have thought about China all day long, and the people I met there, as well as the experiences had. There is a lot about China that I don't miss, but there is so much that I do miss. my babies for example. Suddenly this crushing despair of not ever seeing them again hit me once more. I think that I have shoved these feelings down for a while now, and now here they are, biting me in the butt. And hard. I miss my babies. All 48 of them. I have never loved any one like I have grown to love these kids. They brightened my day, nearly every day. Another really hard thing is that they probably don't even remember "teacha Aliiissa" any more. I'm missing it. Missing them.