Life.

It goes on.

Although at the moment, i'm wondering if it really will.

i find it that i have 10 monumental assignments due within the next 10 days.

it has my nerves strung tight.

i have a...

lesson to teach in public speaking, and nutrition.

a persuasive speech to prepare and give

5 math assignments, 2 of which are math corrections on tests i bombed

an english test tomorrow on a book i haven't read

then a author presentation for english as well.

there may or may not be more. but at the moment, i can't remember. this is good enough for me. far stressful enough as well. i just want to go home quite honestly. too bad i'm forcing myself to stay here for the weekend. why do i hate myself so badly? i don't know. i don't know what i did to deserve this.

the secret is, that i'm not even really staying here this weekend. tee hee! i'm going to hang out with my cousin. go college. or something.

College has taught me...

Nothing.

Okay. so thats is partially a joke, things that i have learned from this whole college experience, is that first, milk always tastes better straight from the carton.

second, you learn that high school homework, well... it has nothing on college homework

third, it shows you how much your family truly means to you, and all the things that your Ma did for you, and you love and appreciate them so much more.

fourth, when you make a mess, you either clean it, or you live in it. i've learned to clean mine.

fifth, you realize how much grocery shopping sucks, then you realize you are going to be doing it for the rest of your life. that realization is nearly suicidal.

sixth, did i mention that you love your family about 16,092,293,299 times more?

i know that the list will grow longer, but for now, this is it.

"All the, Small Things."

All the small things make me think of home.

Like...

• cold cereal
• Biggest Loser
• Wheat Thins
• Halloween Decor
• mail
• clean laundry
• the changing colors
• mountains
• sunsets
• stars
• warm showers
• hot cocoa
• Bananza reruns
• I Love Lucy reruns
• stationary bikes
• P90X
• Tony Horton
• queen sized beds
• pumpkin muffins
• milk
• money (my job as a cashier)
• slow computers
• gas burning stove top
• apples
• peaches
• home cooked meals

Many many more things. this is just what i could think of right now

Family History.

I love the sun. here i sit, in my new dorm room, with my window open, sun streaming in, listening to the General Conference talks that i missed.

Family History.

Elder Bednar said the following about family history, and it hit me on the head like a sack of rocks.

"My beloved young brothers and sisters, family history is not simply an interesting program or activity sponsored by the Church; rather, it is a vital part of the work of salvation and exaltation. You have been prepared for this day and to build up the kingdom of God. You are here upon the earth now to assist in this glorious work."

may we all realize how important it is that we do family history! Bless you Elder Bednar.

My mom took a three week long trip to England, Scotland and Wales last month, (the time length nearly killed me) but she went there for family. She found statutes of our ancestors.

Thomas Charles Edwards. 1837-1900

Thomas Charles. 1755-1814

(mentioned in Wells' History books. sweeeet.)

These men are my ancestors. Thanks to my mother, i know this, (and have the pictures.) i hope that some day, maybe my great great great granddaughter will be interested enough to look back and find my name. And find out about neat things that i did in my life. My Mom told me that when they'd tell people there that they were related to Thomas Charles, they would say, "Every one knows who Thomas Charles is over here!" i want to leave my mark. i want people to know who i am even after i've been dead for 150 years, even if it is only my direct descendants. Maybe i wont be mentioned in Americas History books, but i can still leave my mark. And thats my mission now, to find people in my line, and learn more about them.

The Day I Turned 19.

AKA, Yesterday.

They decorated for my birthday with toilet paper. Family tradition, one i plan to keep with my own family some day. Birthdays aren't Birthdays without it.

Birthday cake? So over rated. Mommas Home made cinnamon roles baby!

Mmm...

We went for a drive. To look at all the colors.

My three best friends. And half of another one.

i love fall.

Hmm.

It's tradition, Gen Con breakfast!

i was so happy that i got to spend my birthday with the people that i love most in this world, my family.